More different stuff....

Work was good...I worked on the opposite hall as Stephanie, so I didn't really have to deal with her much... though she did go out of her way to boss me once... she frustrates me. And I think I frustrate her.

I asked the DON about day hours- she has a part-or 3/4 time shift (not sure which she meant) with days during the week and evenings on my weekends. This sounds good to me because then I'll work from 6am-2pm... and then be DONE for the day. And Stephanie will not be there. And so I will not have to deal with her... or put people to bed, and worry about forgetting important things doing that. I think there will be a lot more answering call lights, and feeding people TWO different meals, and getting them up and washed and dressed... but then it's getting them UP instead of laying them DOWN... and so it's a little different... because you don't have to worry about all of the same safety measures when you're leaving them up and awake, as you do at night... and you don't have to brush their dentures again, because they're clean from the night before. And you GIVE people hearing aids, rather than try to remember to take them away. And it goes on... etc......

So I am soon going to start getting up at 5am and going to bed at 9:30 or 10pm. Yeah.

But I didn't forget so much today- though I was still slow- though I think I'm getting fractionally faster. And what do you know... next I'll be switching over to day hours... and I'll be back at the bottom of a learning curve again. Oh well. I'm not sure whether I want to say "yay"... or "aww.. :( "... . because it's unknown territory still. Yeah.

Time for me to go to bed... it's 1am.... but YAY , I don't work tomorrow.- though I work Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday after that.... I do really hope I have Monday off after that... and I'd BETTER not have to work in the AM that day- they'd better not start me on AM shifts on Monday.... that would be... cruel... getting home at 10:30PM Sunday, and then getting up at 5am Monday?... eww. No thank you.

So. Anyway. Nice paycheck coming. :) Especially since they're giving me a lot of hours. Holli tells me I'm basically getting full time hours right now... which is only annoying because I requested part time.

Goodnight/morning.

~Danette

reposted request...

I did put this in an email I sent to some dear friends recently, but I thought I'd repost it here for those of you who read my blog and whom I forgot or don't have email addresses for...


11/26/06-----------
I'm doing well... tired, though.. :) and more tired of working than tired physically...

I do like my working- the working with the residents and such, anyway... talking with them, helping them, etc... It's the forgetting things/dealing with my coworkers... One of whom, Stephanie, seems to be frustrated with my slowness and ignorance... and she frustrates ME by treating me like I'm pathetic and I'm going to forget everything, just because I forget something ONCE... I will at least say to my favor that I haven't messed up on the same things again after I was reminded/corrected on them. It feels like I'm dreadfully slow- today we were shortstaffed, and I was working by myself, and I fell way behind... and Stephanie came in and informed me that I needed to pick up the pace "because you have a difficult list, and you're really slow,".... And... um... yeah. I think I want to see if I can get day work hours for part/all of the time- because it would be so much nicer if I didn't have to deal w/Stephanie, and I think that I'd also be better off if I didn't have to work putting people to bed- there'd be less things to forget.

Tonight I felt a mixture between crying and screaming, and pulling my hair out, at work. Working with residents is enjoyable! I like helping them, and talking with them, etc. I'm not squeamish like I thought I might be. But after tonight, I feel really tempted to go job-hunting for something not at a nursing home, perhaps an office-assistant job, or a coffee shop, or something... or maybe some combination of a couple of them- but something different than this nursing home- because I don't think I'll grow to enjoy it- and that maybe I'm just not cut out for having to work with coworkers in that environment the same way. I like having time to work with people- actually spend time with them, that is... not race around taking care of them and not treating them like people who like to socialize and talk to me once in awhile. But today I actually didn't forget much in patients' rooms, and I didn't stand around doing NOTHING... I just guess I move sort of slowly over all while working there. Maybe I can find a home-health care job, or apply at the medical staffing solutions place to work as a "fill in" at different places... I don't know exactly. Just that this is frustrating me tonight... and that I dread going back tomorrow...

Sorry you're getting such an outpouring of words from me right now... but I'm a bit tired, and stressed, and I wish my prince was here to give me a hug, and pray with me, and tell me all will be ok.
I want a post-it note to fall from heaven telling me I'm making the right choices, and that things will work out well, because I'm doing the right thing. And I want to get a degree in something- and kind of want to take university classes- to be with the people, get the challenge, the education, the learning... but I don't want to spend more time in school- except for the pharmacy technician program that I want to take, and/or the massage therapist program that I want to take... that one by the way, is in Rice Lake at WITC, and I'm on its wait list... and I'm hoping to go to a meeting on Dec. 6th that could be a possibility to let me off the waiting list and into the course. Pray that it will open up and let me in- because first of all, it's something I really enjoy, second, it's an excuse to have way fewer work hours, and third, the program would take from Jan.through August, and then be DONE.
Just overall, pray for me, because I'm having a stressful time.

Certified Nursing Assistant,... Occupation: CNA

Well, not only do I have my CNA certification... but I now have a job. I'm working at a nursing home in Barron.... where I work from 2-10pm most days... and every other weekend and holiday. I believe I'm making about $10/hr, and I've worked 36hrs this week... and in the next two weeks I'll work about 72hrs... yech. Not incredibly desireable work... but it's ok. It's not horrible, it's not that nasty... and the old people are nice. And most of them are very friendly. A few are confused... one of those is hilarious to interact with... she's funny, nice... and has alzheimers and acts like a seven-year old or so... Another lady acts like a very worried little girl, who thinks she's staying in a hotel in Burnsville, very sick, and doesn't think her mother knows where she is, and wants desperately to call and tell her... Then other times she's lucid and normal... and another lady just ... wanders.

Well.. I have to go to bed if I want to get up in the morning in time for church....

~Danette

CNA Results...

I passed my test!
I thought it would be sooo much harder than it was... and I passed! I wish I could see just how well/bad I did, though... but all of the information I got about it said "PASS" rather than a grade.
Today I went around the area getting and filling out applications to work... and got a call from Riverside Manor nursing home- asking me if I'd like to come to an orientation thing on Monday at 11... so I may just have found myself a job on my first day of job-hunting!