Surrender...

A song from Barlowgirl that really related to me in the last few weeks and months.. when I found it, I kind of went "wow...." and had to buy it on iTunes...

My hands hold safely to my dreams
Clutching tightly not one has fallen.
So many years I’ve shaped each one
Reflecting my heart, showing who I am.
Now you’re asking me to show
What I’m holding Oh so tightly.
Can’t open my hand; can’t let go
Does it matter?
Should I show you?
Can’t you let me go?

Chorus
Surrender, surrender
You whisper gently
You say I will be free
I know but can’t you see
My dreams are me, My dreams are me

Say you have a plan for me
And that you want the best for my life.
Told me the world has yet to see
What you can do with one
That’s committed to your call.
I know of course what I should do
That I can’t hold these dreams forever.
But if I give them now to you
Will you take them
Away forever?
Or can I dream again?



It's all about the struggle between letting go of dreams, knowing that God's plans and dreams are better... or holding on what you have, because you've thought about it, and planned it, and hoped and dreamed for it on your own for however long...

A better way...

I was thinking about my current situation... and I've realized I need to accept that God has a better way than I can ever imagine, for me. For all of you who don't know yet... I broke up with Eric on Monday evening... and I'm not sure how I feel right now. I know it was right- that much I know. But whether or not I can stand up to the pressure my flesh is putting on me to give in and try to reconcile with him instead of standing my ground- and he's not even the one putting any pressure on me at all... but.. it's hard. My heart aches, because I feel like I've lost the person who meant most to me in this world... the one I wanted to be able to marry... while I know that at this point, breaking up was needed. EVERYTHIING makes me think of Eric... it's kind of frustrating... because thoughts just wash over my mind... things we did while he visited me... parts of the summer that I spent at camp with him... things he's told me... and my heart cries out "you're losing something!!!!" but... I also can look to God's word that tells me "the heart is deceitful above all things, and deperately wicked- who can know it?"
but.. anyway. Pray for me? I'm fighting a battle with my heart and mind right now- trying to stay fast to what I believe is right- while an awful little voice in my brain asks me- "are you sure this is what you believe?"...
The devil's attacking me pretty hard in my decision making right now...

I need a hug.

~Danette

For Kimmy.

This post is officially in recognition that Kimmy found my blog. :D And now.. a treat for her.... another one. http://ispiratio.blogspot.com Though not as updated... sorry, Kimmy!

but.. you might like what's on there, anyway.

my color....

BROWN

You are usually very straight-forward. You have a passive personality and enjoy nurturing those around you. You are very grounded and prefer to keep things simple and honest.

Find out your color at QuizMeme.com!

.... I kind of had a draw between violet and brown... but hey- I guess that's ok... because purple and brown look pretty together. :D

VIOLET

You surround yourself with art and music and are constantly driven to express yourself. You often daydream. You prefer honesty in your relationships and believe strongly in your personal morals.

Find out your color at QuizMeme.com!

A breath of air...

These verses just seemed like a breath of fresh -though familiar- air... :) God's steadfast love peeks through the pages of my Bible nearly every day... (as often as I remind myself to open it up... I'm getting better at this- though I still miss a few days.)
:) Psalms 36:5-10

Your steadfast love, O LORD, extends to the heavens,
your faithfulness to the clouds.
Your righteousness is like the mountains of God;
your judgments are like the great deep;
man and beast you save, O LORD.

How precious is your steadfast love, O God!
The children of mankind take refuge in the shadow of your wings.
They feast on the abundance of your house,
and you give them drink from the river of your delights.
For with you is the fountain of life;
in your light do we see light.

Oh, continue your steadfast love to those who know you,
and your righteousness to the upright of heart!

Brita's GRADUATING already???

It seems like the last two years have flown by SO fast... but here she is... with senior pictures already!


This is only a photograph of her photograph... because the scanner's not attached to a working computer right now... but oh well. You get the general idea, anyway. :)